Wednesday, March 30, 2011

I'm so tired...

Because I'm sick of sitting around waiting for things to happen. Because when I take things into my own hands they fall apart. Because I allow myself to care. Because I don't care when I should. Because I get ticked off and blow up at someone and don't do the right thing. Because I don't want to do the right thing. Because I'm sick of doing the right thing. Because sleep does not make up for exhaustion. Because I feel like talking to someone, ANYONE but I don't have the right words. Because they wouldn't understand anyway. Because I know what they will say and it's not what I want to hear. Because I don't want to hear what I need to hear. Because I know what I should do, but.... I won't. Because I am so confused I don't know what to think anymore. Because I procastinate. Because I let my emotions lead me through life. Because my emotions are unstable. Because I allow my to get frustrated too easily. Because I think no one cares. Because I KNOW I'm loved but there's still that nagging feeling. Because I'M the listener and surround myself with talkers. Because I'm afraid of what people think. Because I'm whining about everything to a bunch of people who barely know me. Because I keep it all inside. Because I don't give my full entire trust to any one person. Because.... this was a perfectly fine day until I decided to get ticked at someone. Because everyday is a perfectly fine day but I'm never satisfied. Because I'm a coward. Because I have become too good an actress in life. Because I'm a hypocrite. Because all my friends think I'm always happy. Because I act like a perfect little Christian but when it comes down to it I'm not. Because everytime I tell myself I will go back to God, I stray once again. Because I will probably scare off every one of my followers when they read this raw, vulnerable post. Because I have not been true to myself like my very motto of this blog encourages.
Because I doubt anyone will even read this.
Because I go through life as a Jane Doe

Saturday, March 19, 2011

I'm in love!..... with a car...?

So I was walking through town and I saw this adorable little car and I turn to my friend and say "Isn't that an adorable little car?" She just gave me a weird look. But I couldn't get it off my mind. I told my mom about it and I had her drive past it so I could take note on what kind of car it was. When I got home, I googled it and I think I'm in love! I'm a typical girl in the sense that I don't ususally care about cars.... Over the years I've just sort of passively noticed some different types I like or don't...... but OH. MY. GOODNESS. This car is adorable!!!

 The one I saw was red, but I have a prejudgice against red so I was looking at blue ones. :)
 So photogenic!
 Oooooooo Shiny!!! :)
 Awwwww I want it.
 It speaks for itself.
 :) :) :) :) :) :)
Woah! Thats an intense color!  Like.... avocado :)

My extremely happy mood might also have something to do with the fact that I've listened to Owl City's new song Alligator Sky about.... 6 times today... haha ITS AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!! :)
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